MY COLLEGE JOURNEY.

It is always joy and laughter when one finally get to set their feet in the University  premises. Innocent and focused ready to pursue their courses and later conquer the world. 

To me it wasn't the same,not that I wasn't happy to have finally got to be admitted to the University, I was very happy but I never thought that I'd make it through to the end. I felt like I didn't fit in the school for I was expectant, three months were up already and the month of September was the start of the fourth month. I hadn't not told my mum,but she knew for she is a mother. That didn't stop her and for she never call it off for my education I decided that I'd study whether pregnant or not. 

School, friends and making sure that I was in good health for my unborn child wasn't an easy one. I have suffered rejection,false accusations and abuse from my baby daddy, he was home and I was in school. Women are naturally strong and that didn't make me stop,I studied and I got good grades for I was born a winner.

At some point I deferred but later came back with my 6 months old child to school, for success is what I have yearned for and not even motherhood was ever going to come in between, it has been a tough journey for I have suffered neglect from my own parent, those that I had believed to be my friends left when they saw that I was just but a burden for not once or twice had I asked for their help. 

Depression has hit me hard that I once attempted sucide,I know you going to judge me just as you always judge a drunkard for taking alcohol on a Sunday but it's okay,I am the one who knows the size this shoe. I ended up going for counselling sessions, few lecturers stood by me,my class stood by me,I even managed to meet a new friend. They have taught me to look at what the future holds, I should focus forward and above all God has been with me,reminding everyday that my current situation is just temporary for He has great things in store for me. I know how it feels to go without food and I'm supposed to breastfeed. I know how it feels being  a burden to people. 

I am emotional as I write this,not because I feel sorry for myself, no. These are tears of joy for I only have like a month to get done with school and to be awarded with my diploma in Mass communication. I am happy that though the journey has been tough,I have fought dearly and I just want to let you know that nothing, completely nothing is hard ,just stay focused and always call a spade a spade not a big spoon, take the bull by it's horns. Face that problem for that's the only way you can solve it. Above all ,involve God in everything that you do.